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Fate

July 3, 2008

As we drove up to CT on Sunday, I saw horseback riders along the hutch, and then a hawk taking off into the green forest from the side of the same road. Later on 684 I spotted a car stopped by a police officer with what were either nuns or kids dressed as nuns standing outside of it. I thought, Is this drive putting on a circus for me? What will I see next? I didn’t see anything, but the way the events of the day unfolded made me think about faith and free will. I thought about the difference between believing you’ve been put in a place for a reason, or just happening to be there. Was I put on the road on this Sunday to see all those odd events? I believed I was even more after my trip to CT was able to instead of bring my Grandmother for a nice visit with her family, bring her to see her dying sister-in-law who was brought to the ER the moment we stopped to pick my Grandmother up 30 minutes away.
My Grandmother has lost most of her sight and can’t get to see her Brother and Sister-in-Law unless someone takes her, which doesn’t happen often. With their ailing health, and the 3 of them being the last of a family of 7, not only did I want to bring them together, but I wanted to visit with them too, I’m a family girl.
It was supposed to be an afternoon of sitting and talking, of packing up their anniversary china that they’ve gifted to Matt and me. Instead, it was an afternoon sitting in the ER, watching my Great Aunt struggling to breathe through the oxygen being pushed in to her lungs. Through all that, I was so thankful that Matt and I were there to be able to bring my Grandmother to her brother. He was clearly relived she was there, and she got to feel part of helping, instead of sitting anxiously by the phone like she’s done 4 times prior in the past month when one of them has been to the ER.
Later that night as Matt and I ran I talked about fate versus free will. Part of me felt like I was fated to be there, to bring my Grandmother to her Brother, like there was some higher being pulling the strings. But then when I think about losing my Dad, there was no higher reason for that, nothing good came from that, I don’t believe it happened for a reason.
Matt talked about how appealing the prospect of fate is, in that it helps you take a bad situation like that afternoon and give it meaning.
And the afternoon took on even more meaning this morning when I got the call that Freda had died. Thank God, I thought as I pushed back the sadness and dressed for work, that we were there on Sunday so Bubba could see her one last time. Thank God, or whoever and whatever it is out there, if anything at all.

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2 Comments leave one →
  1. Scott S. permalink
    July 8, 2008 5:38 am

    I appreciate you sharing. It seems our society is afraid to speak about important things like faith, or politics for that matter.

    I have considered this as you have. Fate vs. Free will is an interesting combination. I have seen too many things in my life to not believe there is a God. At the same time, I believe that we, more or less, direct our own lives as we see fit.

    That being said, I believe that any good person that wants to do good can be directed in their thoughts and actions. I would definitely say that you were inspired to go up there last week. Good for you for being the kind of person that would listen.

    The world can accommodate any number of views on faith and I believe it’s important that we do believe in something.

    I know my own life would not be as good without my faith.

  2. Scott S. permalink
    July 8, 2008 5:38 am

    I appreciate you sharing. It seems our society is afraid to speak about important things like faith, or politics for that matter.I have considered this as you have. Fate vs. Free will is an interesting combination. I have seen too many things in my life to not believe there is a God. At the same time, I believe that we, more or less, direct our own lives as we see fit.That being said, I believe that any good person that wants to do good can be directed in their thoughts and actions. I would definitely say that you were inspired to go up there last week. Good for you for being the kind of person that would listen.The world can accommodate any number of views on faith and I believe it’s important that we do believe in something.I know my own life would not be as good without my faith.

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